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Vergangenheitsbew​ä​ltigung (Crater Speak)

by Slauson Malone

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sam kittrell
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sam kittrell this is my crisis album. i listen at key critical moments of my life and it helps me make difficult decisions. i will listen to this album for the rest of my life. Favorite track: Smile #6 (see page 198 and 158).
Ben
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Ben I haven’t cried this hard in a long time. This record is soul crushingly emotional and I will always always always love Jasper’s guitar and vocals on this record. Favorite track: The Wake Pt. 3 & 2 (see page 87, 58, and 48).
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47 this album inspires so much love in me, thankful for the artists and their expression Favorite track: The Wake Pt. 3 & 2 (see page 87, 58, and 48).
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1.
I feel crazy I feel crazy I feel sleepy I feel crazy I can’t I mean why man I need some help I need some help Are you scared? Where I go? Where I go? I need some help I need some help
Ttrabul Bring me home No more drama Normal drama No more drama No more trauma
2.
Are you scared? If you’re scared then say that you’re scared Smoke like a ghost Laugh till I choke, look like a ghost Dagger & Cloak, look like a ghost Stabbed in my throat slow Murder they wrote, look like a ghost Stuck in a joke, look like a ghost Bottle a note Bottle a boat Coast to coast Shore to shore Show to show Ocean my home Osun my Blood on the globe Blood round the globe Ancestors know Ancestors don’t My Mama know My Mama don’t My Mama know My Mama don’t They ain’t know They don’t know They ain’t know They don’t know Feel in my bones Licking my teeth Double down jinx Sink in my seat Need me Visine Eyes got a leak Lungs in my feet I cannot breath Ribs out to eat Thinkin bout beef Lower esteem All on my knees Praying for weeks But he never speak So Crater my Speak Crater my Speak Cradle my, cradle my Tongue in my wounds Hop out the womb Crying for you Leaving too soon Waiting for tomb Stay in cocoon Stay in my room Haunted by news Haunted by noose Trauma on call This ain’t my fault Like L.A. on faults Utopia broke Buck Minister dome Everything chrome Everything, everything Sunny side up Look like a yolk Fried all my Free all my I hear no drums I got the jones Look like a ghost Damned where I go? Look like a ghost Look like a ghost Ain’t nowhere for me to run… Are you scared? Are you scared again... Are you scared... again...
3.
Scared Why ya? Memories is medicine But Past make me reticent I really need me Ritalin or better yet some mescaline If you’re scared then say that you’re scared Cause future’s always tentative And present’s always relative Like birthdays with my Missing presences was felt, scared They say these the cards dealt, scared But life ain’t a game And I show ain’t a spade And I show ain’t a slave And we show ain’t the same But I wonder? What makes a card different besides the number? Or between a Club and a Clover Looking four luck in them L.A. summers I remember my Ma in Dumb and Dumber I remember near death in a Rover I remember when she got sober Then copped the same one in October Same color, same color Can’t smile at the past when I see it Mistake my past as seen it Cause what was ain’t what it really seem Maybe pain is what I really mean Or maybe gas what I really need Too bad it turned me to a fiend For weeks, dazed With my Momma on oC-enia I don’t know, no Where to go, go Protect my soul Before I’m ghost I’m gone, I’m gone I was lost but I’m found, I think?
4.
To see Black Not that all you Stars have fallen But they have since reappeared
Only slightly dimmer Remember, world DON’T SET IT JUST GO AWAY, OH SUN DON’T SET IT JUST GO AWAY, OH SUN DON’T SET IT JUST GO AWAY, OH SUN DON’T SET IT JUST GO AWAY, OH SUN DON’T SET IT JUST GO AWAY
5.
Numb I was on the roof and Contemplating truth and Saw my self running But now I ain’t running Came a long way, away Remember them days You could still see it in we face Blues blood like them waves Come out to show them Looking for a old place new space Behind the moon and the stars But not another planet just balance But we stuck You love my pain Whole life bad luck cause They ain’t trust us Ain’t the type to know real just us or without us Make a new dance bout us then drown Make the pain go away brain go away Celebrate sorrow Till I can’t tomorrow It’s just time borrowed It’s just time borrowed Imagine light without darkness Or the mind without solace This what mama promised This what mama promised? This ain’t what they taught us I saw myself, saw my I was on the roof and Contemplating truth and Saw myself running But now I ain’t running I’m back where I begun Nowhere to run After freedom Now my feets stay numb But I’m gone I’m gone I’m gone I’m g– Like a hole, Like a ghost Like coals, Like smoke My soul, no shell Like shoals, no roads Where I go? Where I go? They know, they know I’m alone, ain’t alone I’m home I was on the roof and Contemplating truth and I, Saw myself running But now I ain’t running
6.
I feel Really
7.
Stars and Stripes Smiles and Mikes Blind by lights Turns all things yt Found sculptures Lost Cultures Erasure Horticulture But don’t Paint it black There is no Past Love our lack Now just see Black Stars and Stripes Smiles and Mikes Blind by lights Turns all things yt
8.
No matter how hard you try you can’t stop me now No matter how hard you try you can’t stop me now Stop me now No matter how hard you try you can’t stop me now They bled, they bled, they bled No matter how hard you try you can’t stop me now Stop me now In flesh No matter how hard you try Nothing seemed to work World still turn And I tried and I tried and But my World still burn My World I seen I lost it all By myself In skin In flesh In bones Ash to dust Coal to touch Fire to drugs Skin to sun Iron to rust Power to trust Atlas shrugged World’s eclipsed Saturn scoffed Jupiter adrift Red eye to L.A. Causer of fate Like Figure 8s Like a hurricane Or water to rain Cycles to blame Perpetuate pain Watch it rotate Past leave a stain In a carbon trace Till west erased Shavings on page Shapes engraved Drawing a phantom Spiritually paid Fly through the Hood David display Specters of place Run Samothrace Haunted by days As the sun go away Darkness my face Body of clay Mountains like shoulders Rivers like veins Sisyphus boulder High when I’m stoned Low when I’m sober As I get older I try and resist But it persist Absurd as it is Hand in a fist in the sky False sense of pride In my skin In my flesh In my bones
9.
I know you know I’ll be at your wake in the waves When you dead When you dead When you dead When you de-ad Fallling Slow Slow Slow Standing here I know you know They’ll be at your wake on the web When you dead When you dead When you dead When you de-ad Falling Slow Slow Slow Till you dead weight Till you dead wait Throw you in the water Slow, slow Turn your life to a martyr Standing, staring at Red and blue lights Blood purple skies In the waves in the wake Learn to swim learn to sink Falling Scream out, reach out To be held, to be hurt Wind cries turn to rain Are you scared? Are you scared? Are you scared? Darkness in my smile Shadows in my speech Thunder in my tongue Lighting in my teeth I know you know I know you know I know you know I know you know I know you know I know you know

about

My fear, my loneliness, my happiness. My blackness, my queerness, my objectness.
My subjectness. I am haunted by likenesses. I’m haunted by my a self. _ _ _ _ like a _ _ _ _ _. Smile, Simile. Messages, Massages.
(Crater Speak) is the title of a catalogue I published with Midway Contemporary Art. It is an unreliable guide of materials that influence my artistic and musical practice. There are several associative chapters that dance, outlining a perimeter. The steps draw the rim of a crater.
An old absence present. Here by unimaginable heat, scale, speed, and violence. Collision to disintegration to... (see The Thing, 1982).
“The rings of Saturn consist of ice crystals and probably meteorite particles describing circular orbits around the planet’s equator. In all likelihood these are fragments of a former moon that was too close to the planet and was destroyed...” - W. G. Sebald, Rings of Saturn.
To become a star is to become certain death. Of stone, of (s)tar, petrified. R U SCARED? Of mud, muck, ivory, oil, and bones. A New World by refined old old oooold Death.

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released September 16, 2020

Personnel
Flute: Francesca Ferrera
Bass Clarinet: Ben Chapoteau-Katz
Alto Saxophone: Leland Whitty
Tenor Saxophone: Ben Chapoteau-Katz
Trumpet: Brandon Woody
Trombone: Jonah Levine
Tuba: Osita Atikpoh
Cello: Nicky Wetherell
Drums: Alex Sowinski
DFAM: Olu Odubiro

Mastered by Alex Epton

Artwork by Bolade Banjo, Jelani Rice, Seth Kenji, and Abraham El Makawy

Special Thanks
Christopher Baliwas
Parker, Ritchie, Groggs, and Nick Herbert
Taja & Ben
Nick Hakim
Taphari
Midway Contemporary Art
Cheflee

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Slauson Malone 1 is a performance piece created by artist and musician Jasper Marsalis, exploring the possible intersections of popular music and performance art.

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